Through life you meet people, some of them stay and others fade away. But everyone enters your life for a sole purpose. I remember this day vividly, it was in the midst of the darkness, the depression, loneliness and hopelessness. My friend had told me to come over to cheer up. As I opened the door I saw the purest thing ever, a cute baby smiling at me. I didn’t care to meet anyone except for him. His innocence and purity gave me hope that there is some good in this world.
As soon as I held him, I felt this energy that made me feel OK. I truly believe it was god sending me an angel, telling me not to lose hope. I told his mom that we have to be friends because her son has so much light and I need this kind of light in my life. Three years later today his mom is my best friend and he is my god son.
Given that we were almost neighbors, I was at her place every day after work. He was less than a year old at the time we would play, I would put him to bed, I would change his diaper. We were a family. Everyone know he meant a lot to me to the point if I was having a bad day people would tell me “just go see butters.”
In early, 2014 he was diagnosed with autism. It was very hard on his mom and it was very hard on me. We just didn’t understand what was going on. However, to me he is still Butters. He is not an autistic kid, he is not her autistic son. He is Butters. The boy whom I cry for when he injures himself, the boy who loves me unconditionally and gives me hugs and kisses, the boy who brightened my life.
Here is what my three year old god son taught me that the world didn’t. Your disease doesn’t define you, you are who you are and those who matter will love you no matter what. It may seem like nothing is going right and your world is falling apart, but you have to remember that there is light, there is hope, and there is a god that’s looking out for you. He taught me that sometimes you love someone so much that whatever hurts them hurts you and whatever makes them happy makes you happy. He taught me unconditional love, compassion and to appreciate the simple things in life.
Through life you meet people, some of them stay and others fade away. But everyone enters your life for a sole purpose. His purpose was to show me the light, to bring me out of the darkness and to give me hope. Hope for healing, hope for loving and hope for a better life.